Some Days, I Just Want Peace
Some days, the weight of it all feels unbearable. The loneliness, the ache of what could have been, the constant fight against anxiety just to get through basic tasks... Today, I’m not going to post inspirational quotes or pretend I’m okay. The truth is, I’m exhausted and my heart hurts.
Just trying to get groceries, but seeing happy families together broke me a little today. Reminders of what I’ve lost hit me harder than I like to admit. The smallest setback sends me spiraling. Dropping a glass, missing a bus...it feels like proof I’ll never get this right
The worst part is the anxiety. Leaving my house feels like a mountain to climb. Some mornings, I wake up shaking, and there are times I see my life flash before me like I’m going to die. That feeling of something crushing my chest, the overwhelming fear... it paralyzes me. There are days when I can’t even get out of bed, let alone shower or eat. It’s a dark place, and it makes leaving my home feel impossible. It’s a crippling disease.
My heart is broken, and I don’t think it can ever fully heal. Sometimes I think the loneliness and the anxiety will win. But today, I’m trying to be kinder to myself. Maybe that’s a start. Am I alone in feeling this way?
